Trick or Treat
Mother with teens and all the woo is me thoughts I encounter - mine and my childrens!Monday, December 10, 2007
QUESTIONS - ALWAYS QUESTIONS
HELLO
AFTER BILLY'S FUNERAL I GAVE MY EMAIL ADDRESS TO SHARON AND SHE GAVE IT TO KRISTINA AND I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO KRISTINA, IT ANSWERED A LOT OF QUESTIONS ABOUT WHY THEY ALL DISSAPEARED 25 YEARS AGO AND WHY MY DAD AND MOM NEVER HUNG OUT WITH LOUIE AFTER THAT. BUT I WOULD FIND IT INTERESTING TO TALK TO SHARON MORE ABOUT WHY SHE NEVER CAME TO MOM OR DADS FUNERAL, I ASSUME SHE DIDN'T WANT TO SEE LOUIE, BUT DO YOU HAVE AN EMAIL FOR HER. IF NOT I COULD ASK KRISTINA, BUT I GOT THE IMPRESSION THAT TALKING TO ME STIRRED UP BAD MEMORIES FOR HER.
THANKS
KIM
EXCUSES - I MEAN - ANSWERS
Sharon lives in Mesa, AZ - works for Chase Banking and she does have an email at work - (Don't know it) - No computer at home.
DRUGS - SELLING - USING - (SAME GOES FOR ALCOHOL - AS WELL AS ALL THOSE OTHER VICES US HUMANS CRAVE) - HAVE NO PLACE WHEN YOU ARE IN CHARGE OF RAISING CHILDREN !!!!!!!!
Joke: I gave up all most of that shit and my children - are still people - putting themselves and Biff and I through HELL ( - OR - *LIFE* ).
It's true time and only time can and does heal all wounds:
Louie was Sharon's first and only love - While they were married - He cheated on her - Beat on her - The list goes on . . . She never remarried because even after all that their relationship woes - In the back of her mind she always saw herself - Getting back with him - Growing old with him - It wasn't until a year after Louie died - and - I finally got in touch with her after searching for her on the internet off and on for a year - That her whole fantasy of Forgive and Forget finally hit her - Too much time had passed - and - Still all the wounds had not healed. Sharon and I and Kristina have been in close contact since then. A few years back, I took Grandma on a road trip through Spokane where we all visited for the first time in only God knows how many years. Sharon was here last summer and she took Louie's ashes home with her. While she was here she went to the city cemetary and sat and talked with your mother for quite some time. And she spent an evening with Billie at the bowling alley. You do remember that he lived with Louie and Sharon in San Diego, don't you? All I can guess about missed funerals - is not enough time had passed.
Blood is thicker than water: It took time for your mother - and father - to forgive Louie - (We Shorts - always question everything - and yes we rationalize(sp) - too much - in our family favor) - but they did eventually - and did spend time with him especially while he was with Rena when they lived on 9th West - Don't you remember going down there - Drums, guitars - I have pictures - of you there.
The first time Sharon and Louie split up - As a single mother Sharon got herself in real deep - Using and selling drugs - and - She takes a whole lot of blame upon herself for getting Louie -deeper- into the drugs and such - especially while in San Diego - She also blames herself for her childrens alcohol and drug trials. From what I understand - She went cold turkey - on drugs - just one day - said no more - She doesn't even smoke cigarettes anymore - and she was a smokestacker !!!!!!!
We all choose our own paths - scary part is - *When*, where, why - how - and what was our motive - In choosing this PATH - this TIME -
Louie left love and scars on his path - BUT - When all is said and done - He left people that loved him more than he loved himself. Supposedly we are living to LOVE AND BE LOVED - I heard that somewhere - maybe - it was a Beatles song - who knows?
Beverly lives in Denver, Stephanie - (who was born same year as Kristy) - is a dentist and lives in Idaho.
Sheila lives in Penn., Stormie lives in Alaska - Sonny lives in Texas.
Rena lives in West Valley . . .
Here is a weird tidbit about life: Little Louie - was here last summer (long story - drunk - homeless - long hair) - Billie saw him on a freeway offramp with a sign - and they chatted - You answer this one: Why in this big ass world would those two run into eachother like that - unless . . . (My guess - they had some goodbyes to say, eh?) Billie also spent a lot of time at Lou and Rena's while Little Lou lived with them.
Just thought I would fill you in on my humble opinion of this particular course of events - Here I sit - a middle child of ten children - Left taking care of my mother by myself - I never got no loving - I was in the middle - I am so pissed at myself because I am can't tell my siblings that they are all total *______ ers - and sad but true - They will only find out how much they need their mother when she is gone !
I know I should have warned you the SHORT VERSION - IS ALWAYS LONG !!!!!!!!!!!! My humble advice to you is: LIVE LONG - FORGIVE NOW - (Forget - yeah right) - TIME PASSES FAST !!!!!!!
